I admit, i have been avoiding my own blog for a while. Maybe cause i'm always so cheerful and all of a sudden i'm this emotional wreck trying to make my way to the top. :/ Seriously, i needed a wake up call.

Since my last update, i've been frequently going out because i can't stand the atmosphere back home. Alot of crap's been happening lately. But OH well, right?

This post is obviously dedicated to my one and only brother Dominate, as i need to sincerely say i'm sorry for not being there for him since i was too busy avoiding the world and any closure with any living thing.

I nearly met in an accident 2 Friday's ago. Right after watching Monte Carlo. I met Dom in Jusco and also had dinner with him. Yes, his dinner sucked. mine was alright. I don't know what came over me. I just blanked out and nearly screwed the car in the wrong direction. I wasn't afraid of death, i never have been. What scares me is the way i'll die. But that's for God to decide. I'm his Barbie.

Mum and I have been hammerhead sharks for a while now. She hammers me like there's no tomorrow and me, having not learnt RESPECT for people who have NO RESPECT for me, had to give her a taste of her own nagging. And therefore, that's what i did. I've been so frustrated being at home.

Plus, this librarian teacher didn't hand in the speech early and she blamed me. Imagine what a failure i felt like for a moment? UGH. Well, i'm gonna be sarcastic with the cock-eyed lady! :(

And besides that, i'm falling behind in my school work because i'm too focused on my librarian boards' magazine production. I'm nearly done with it. I must congratulate my team mates. They are awesome. :D

And the last one was that my heart got played. Yeah, by a jackass. I still can't believe this. Me? I never give in to 'love' like that. And ever since me and XX separated ages ago, it still doesn't feel right. Well, i'm tired of all the games. Really. Still the best song for this situation: Rolling in the DEEP.

But things are finally looking up for me, i guess. Thank you God and the guardians of the universe. :)

Calvin Chong made me emcee of Librarian Night. all i have to do is find a male who can be my partner in stage crime that night.

this leads to ME to NOT performing for my duty day. :) WAWESOME FANTAWSM. That takes off 15% of my stress off my chest.

Danny and I are planning to meet up this December holidays. I'm really excited to meet him. He's been my best friend ever since he reached optimism and positivity. Yeah, Persona rocks. But i'm pretty excited about Skype-ing him this September after our 5-Months-Challenge. Though we're both worried about Finn. And i'm glad he and Jac are friends again. :D See, bright side.

I'm catching up with school work. Well, i'm till trying. I'm done with teachers work already. which is good cause she shouldn't come after me anymore. Seriously feel like giving up all the posts already. TIRED. :(

I've got my Lib. Night dress already. Amazing. Looks so Latina in it. I'm trying to get a hair colour spray for the night. RED dress. wondering what colour should i try. Since i'm strange in every way. Tell me, WHO in the world isn't an attention seeker?

Anyhoos. That's about it FOR now. I'm so tired. :( Nights.